Weird, yet Wonderful.

I'd like to share this song with you. You see, I'm writing this blog whilst listening to it. It's the kind of song that gives you tingles. It's the kind of song that lets you sit back, relax, let everything out and think.. or at least try. It's meaningful. It's calm. It's beautiful. Now press play. Enjoy.

Three, two, one; read.

I seriously just want to give up. Sometimes, there are just too many things to think about. I'm stressed out. I know.. relax. Yeah, i try; believe me. I just want to get away from everything. I want to be free, i want to forget, and i want to stop thinking.. at least just for a moment. You know what, i want to be able to truly trust someone. It's not that i don't, but you can never be sure. Some say not to trust anyone, but i believe they are just insecure and small-minded. There is always someone out there that is willing to listen, you just have to find them.

I'm also sick of people who think they have the authority to judge someone. Hey, we may not look or act like you, but it doesn't mean you can be a stuck up jerk. Ever seen someone stare at you in the weirdest way or hear them talk about you behind your back? Yeah, i have, and let me tell you.. i just want to punch them in the face so they can wake up to themselves. You don't judge someone just because they are having fun or decide to do something that you don't think is "cool". These jerks only do this because they're jealous that they don't have a life like yours. Get real, live your life while you still can.

Don't you just wish that you could tell anyone everything? I mean, there's lots of things i could go on about - some secrets too. But i choose not to because honestly, I'm worried about what people would think of me. No, I'm not cowardly. Would you reveal everything about yourself on a blog? No. So don't even start. Like i was saying.. I really need to get things off my mind, but i don't know how or who to tell. .__. I like to think of myself as weird, yet wonderful ^^ However or whatever your opinion is about me.. i don't mind, just as long as i don't catch onto it.

I'm really not expecting any, but if you would like to leave your 'opinion' about me in the comments, that's okay - Just as long as they don't kill me inside - like some people have already done.

Toodles.

The big question.

Yesterday, along with about 8 other people, i went ice skating. It was heaps of fun seeing as i actually know how to ice skate. The let down was the people who failed to come, and the gay music they played. Now the painful part was stacking it twice - getting a lump on my ankle and a bruise on my knee. D: When it was time to go home, Zoe's parents picked us up, and i slept over her house. It was totally fun and hilarious. The next day, me and Zoe went bowling - and of course i won. (122 points) :D

Ice skating was good, but the other people there kinda sucked. The first time i stacked it, these stupid tarts just skate past me laughing.. only to find themselves on the floor later on. - Sweethearts, it's called Karma.
Oh and i also had a 'blush moment' when a guy accidentally rode into me and said "Sorry beautiful" -Like wow. That's probably the nicest thing a cute stranger could say. I don't mean to make a big fuss about it but come on, you don't hear that everyday.

Anyway, somethings have me thinking and questioning.
Not that I'm in love or anything, but what does 'love' and 'like' actually mean? People use this phrase very often, and I'm getting sick of it. How do you know that what you're feeling is true? Should everyone automatically love someone? It seriously confuses me.

To answer this question i googled it. This is an advice column:

Well when you like someone, it's usually the funny fireworks or nervous feelings you get. You could think about them all the time and or be shy around them - they are crushes, it happens all the time. Although it is possible to grow a crush or friendship into a relationship, it just takes time. If you don't know them all that well, you have to talk to them and get to know them better. Most of all, they have to like you back.

Love is when you've found a million things inside that person that you know you can't find anywhere else. You have real, substantial conversations all the time that bring you closer together. You respect each other and want to spend time together and make sacrifices. You have common values, not just interests, and you both want to grow and be better people for the other person. It's not always totally logical... you could meet someone who seems perfect for you, but they never really inspire you or capture your interest. It can also be misleading, because you could just think someones really hot, or they may have a nice body, and you want to be around them but that's not love - it's lust. It's a mix of solid ground and unexplainable clouds that you get to, and people say you'll know it when it hits you but I'm not so sure about that, I think it hits you first, then you wake up and realise it, but it's different for everyone, you'll have to find it in your own journey.

I'm sure after reading this you will understand, much like i have.

Oh great, now I'm going to look like a horror movie. I have mascara on (I've been out today) and my eyes are watery from writing and editing this damn thing.
Toodles.

Twitter.

The conversation Karina and I had yesterday-
(9:51 PM) My guilty pleasure:
My new saying: seriously, if you like twitter, i hate you.
do u like twitter?
(9:52 PM) - karina:
eww
i heard ******* does though..he even has his own account that he twitters on
(9:52 PM) My guilty pleasure:
*disgusted look on face*
(9:52 PM) - karina:
you are talking about the one on the net right?
(9:52 PM) My guilty pleasure:
dirty son of a bi---
(9:52 PM) - karina:
not the "zoe" one?
(9:52 PM) My guilty pleasure:
huuh?
zoe one?
(9:53 PM) - karina:
twitter time..
(9:53 PM) My guilty pleasure:
thats not "zoes" and no, not that one.
actual twitter.
(9:54 PM) My guilty pleasure:
i hate it..
i loathe it.
(9:54 PM) My guilty pleasure:
i hate and loathe anyone that dares to go on it.
(9:54 PM) My guilty pleasure:
it is a complete and total waste of time.
anyway, who designs a webstie after a dumb bird?
(9:56 PM) My guilty pleasure:
..and is so stupid, they name it something with the past tense word - twat D:
(9:56 PM) My guilty pleasure:
it's just a lame excuse to start a gay trend.
(9:57 PM) - karina:
lol
(9:58 PM) My guilty pleasure:
i feel for the mindless people who fall victim to the 'twit' trap.
(9:58 PM) My guilty pleasure:
i really do.
(9:59 PM) - karina:
yeah

Wouldn't you agree?
Toodles.

Changing for the better.

We laugh at something, not always because it's simply funny, but because we hide the truth. Happiness doesn't cue questions; where as misery asks for answers. So you act with glee. You don't like to tell people what is really going on - they don't understand.

Life has it's ups and downs. Unfortunately some people are stuck with the mishaps. It can be hard to deal with certain events at rather unpleasant times. Usually when something bad happens, you would turn to those close. But what if they don't care.. or they don't get what you're trying to say? You just have to live with it. Sometimes there isn't a happy ending.

Memories - there are the good ones; while some can have you in tears. It's not necessarily the bad ones i despise, but the loved ones. I remember what life used to be like, i also know that i can't have any of it back. Yet you should never regret anything you do, because everything happens for a reason. Paths lead to new possibilities, some which you may never have considered. I guess that's what life is about.. changing for the better, and finding that someone.

Toodles.

Hopeless.

Yesterday was sooooooo supercalafrikenawesome! I went go-karting at this place about an hour away from here. The race track was massive-veeery long. We raced for two fifteen minute intervals. I GOT TO WEAR A MOTORBIKE HELMET; LOOOL. On the track i thought i was going to die ROFL - i spun out and did a 360 twice. I also crashed into the tires and fence twice.. but that didn't stop me. :D

Awww, why does school have to be tomorrow? I want the holidays to be now. ): I want to sit back, relax and SLEEEP. I bet when the holidays do come, they will go so quick you wouldn't even notice them. I wish they went for like 4 weeks instead .___.

I think im going to fall asleep right about now.. i did six and a half pages of maths homework. -it may be because i have slightly bigger writing, but meh.

Toodles.

Karma.

Omfg, i stayed up all night to finish history, only to find the teacher decides not to show up to class. ==

I finished the damn assignment at 2am this morning and i woke up at 6am this morning. Four short hours to sleep. I can tell you, that REALLY sucked. I was excited that i had finished - you know, that feeling of success and accomplishment.. but NO. We find out that our history teacher is at the binishell watching the pirates thing. I bet it was because i left it to the last minute; and because i worked so hard on it, someone up there thought it would be hilarious if we actually didn't need to do it. D:<

Well i have to go now because Rachel is going to pick me up in 20minutes - we are going to the Pirates thing. :D LOOL, "pirates thing." - don't ask.
Toodles.

Dead and Gone.

I am so tired it's not funny. It's 12:30am and i am currently in the middle of my history assignment. D:<

Yeah, about the title - my back is dead and my head has gone to sleep. I really really really just want to go to sleep, but i can't. *yawn* You know what, im wasting my time on this when i could be working. I hate you blog. O;

OH how ironic, yeah - i just remembered my last entry. "It's due on friday and frankly i cbf doing it last minute again." T________T

well SHUTUP! D:

Toodles.