Excuses, excuses.

The honest reason as to why I am writing this blog today in this unbearably hot weather is because I hate abandoning things. I like to continue the things I start, and if I don’t, I feel somewhat disappointed in myself. I also thought that instead of studying for a test tomorrow I should find an excuse to take up my time and study later because I seriously can’t be bothered memorising pages of information in this sickening heat. In other words, I’m using my blog to avoid work and basically because I feel sorry for it.

Wow. Swimming sucks. When it’s a hot day, yeah it’s great to get wet. But not when you have to be instructed by a bitch. Ha-ha yeah, belly flops are totally hilarious aren’t they? Even more when you’ve done it 3 times with the instructor mocking you. I guess doing laps isn’t so bad; I’d just like a little freaking break in between so I don’t drown from exhaustion. Going back to school on the bus was a fail for me. The only good part of the bus trip was where we got out and went home. Lucky me! I got to sit on a bus wheel the whole ride back! Yes. A bus wheel. Well half of it anyway. Not only did it make me hotter, but it killed my ass. Overall I have to say, the best bit of the day was when I got home to realise I had sunburn. My bad.

Note to self: Get/fake some sort of weird disease to avoid swim school.

Toodles.

Ridiculous.

My head is in a state of depression right now. I have lost one of my diamond earrings. –My parents are unknowing & normal, whilst I am quietly freaking out. What do I do? I’ve looked for them everywhere. The guilt is immense and ripping my soul apart. My favourite earrings are now lost & unwearable. I’m on a secret mission to find it. I mean that earring has to be here somewhere right?

Waking up at 2am isn’t exactly great is it? No. But waking up at 2am with a spider on you is just absolutely fantastic. Not only did I scream, but after trying to get it off of myself, I flicked it somewhere – and... I didn’t exactly know where that somewhere was. So I spent about half an hour worrying it was going to come back – not exactly thrilled to see me – and attack me. I know I’m such an idiot... but I also know that spiders bite, and I wasn’t ready to die. –Well you know what I mean. Yeah, I’m probably going to get a lot of crap from people mocking me and asking why I chose Outdoor Ed if I can’t handle spiders. Well because I like the outdoors... that and I completely forgot about the bug situation while picking the subject.

You know how I “love” visual arts... well it just got a whole lot worse. We have a one thousand word essay to do on some woman named Margaret Preston. Like we don’t already have enough work. Anyway, you may have seen the Angelina Jolie artwork I did on the massive canvas... yeah it turns out that it had been hanging on the principal’s office wall. Like what the freak? Did I give her permission to steal my painting for her own enjoyment? NO. Its worse enough she had it, (We got my painting back so it could be in the art exhibition with all these magnificent artworks the year 9VA class has done) but now she actually wants to MEET ME. All I know is she isn’t keeping it –Unless she would like to give me 1,000 bucks. That’s not the actual value, but for her – I’m happy to raise it.

Yes, that's my artwork above.

Toodles.

Just a little sarcasm.

Why does life challenge us ? If things were free and obstacles were no longer a matter, wouldn't life be better.. ? I'd imagine a care-free, totally relaxing world where anything can happen. Apparently there's no such thing. Everything we do just has to have a catch. It's like - 'Buy one, get two free !' ..Then you read the fine print.. 'Only if you're a complete doosh who believes in this kinda shit'. OH JOY. D:

Keeping on the sarcastic tone ~ i just absolutely loveee visual arts right now. It's the best subject in the world. I love the large amounts of theory work we get. I love the way everything is so complicated and confusing. I love eeeeverything about it ! :D No, not really. Dammit, i thought it'd be easy.. just drawing.. just painting. I was so very wrong. :/

Ohhh you know what else i really love ? Chores. I love doing them every week to satisfy my parents. You know i even count down the days 'til i have to do them, they're that exciting ! Buht you know what i love most of all ? Doing the dishes for no reason. It's awesome how my parents make me do the dishes even though we have a DISHWASHER. Seriously.. it's great. :)

You may be thinking What's she got stuck uhp her ass? Well nothing. I just thought it would be rather interesting to let you all know how much somethings suck. WOOO ! ;D Buht of course, you would have all experienced something like that before. Anyway, now that i have everything out of my head, imma relax. That is of course, if my brother shuts up. LOL.

Toodles.

Patience

Yeah i know i haven't posted anything in a while buuht that's because of how much stupid freaaking homework and assignments i've had. Especially sorry to Alice. o:

As you grow up you realise you can't get everything you want. You suddenly have to earn things. You have to keep up to a standard to avoid disappointment. You also have to make decisions which play massive roles in life. They can be hard, but they may pay off in the end.

No matter how bad you want it, it's not going to happen any quicker or any easier. You have to learn to be patient. You have to work hard at something in order for it to grow or turn into something more. It could take one hell of a journey, buuht it just might lead you in the perfect direction.

It may not be alot, but that's all i have to say for now. Thanks for reading;
Toodles.

Happiness.

First of all, I'd like to give a special mention to a very good friend of mine - Alice. Whatever the problem, whatever the time, she would be there willing to listen and help. She is especially good at making me laugh 'til i cry. She's one of the nicest, awesomest, and bestest people i know. :D Alice will always be a best mate of mine and always one of the coolest. ;)

Woah. Today was the most extremely awkward day. My mum decided to pick me up because my brother stayed home sick. As i get in the car and say hello, we drove off. Not even half way home.. my mum randomly asks "Sooo.. do you have a boyfriend?" I replied "Noo..." -awkward silence- So she asks "Well do you like anybody?" I replied "uhhm no." Then she said "Liar.." I roll my eyes and say "Whatever."
Meanwhile, I'm thinking.. WTH?! Why now anyway? She probably planned it so i would have never suspected it. *shifty eyes*

You will never be happier than you expect. To change your happiness, change your expectation.
-Bette Davis
Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run.
-David Leonhardt
True happiness is not attained through self-gratification, but through fidelity to a worthy purpose.
-Helen Keller
Yeah i thought I'd look up happiness. I don't know why.. i just did. (:

Ever had those moments where you start laughing or smiling for 'no apparent reason'? I love them. When they happen to me, I'd usually be remembering something nice or funny someone said to me. Then someone will ruin that happy moment with a "Dude.. you feeling OK? It's exactly like when that pretty music is playing, then it suddenly stops and you realise you looked like a total retard. D:

Anyways, I'm getting really tired. *yawn*
I was suppose to be doing my geography assignment, but it was really hard.. so after about an hour of TRYING to look for information i gave up. I bet I'm going to epically fail this assignment. LOOL.
Toodles.

Weird, yet Wonderful.

I'd like to share this song with you. You see, I'm writing this blog whilst listening to it. It's the kind of song that gives you tingles. It's the kind of song that lets you sit back, relax, let everything out and think.. or at least try. It's meaningful. It's calm. It's beautiful. Now press play. Enjoy.

Three, two, one; read.

I seriously just want to give up. Sometimes, there are just too many things to think about. I'm stressed out. I know.. relax. Yeah, i try; believe me. I just want to get away from everything. I want to be free, i want to forget, and i want to stop thinking.. at least just for a moment. You know what, i want to be able to truly trust someone. It's not that i don't, but you can never be sure. Some say not to trust anyone, but i believe they are just insecure and small-minded. There is always someone out there that is willing to listen, you just have to find them.

I'm also sick of people who think they have the authority to judge someone. Hey, we may not look or act like you, but it doesn't mean you can be a stuck up jerk. Ever seen someone stare at you in the weirdest way or hear them talk about you behind your back? Yeah, i have, and let me tell you.. i just want to punch them in the face so they can wake up to themselves. You don't judge someone just because they are having fun or decide to do something that you don't think is "cool". These jerks only do this because they're jealous that they don't have a life like yours. Get real, live your life while you still can.

Don't you just wish that you could tell anyone everything? I mean, there's lots of things i could go on about - some secrets too. But i choose not to because honestly, I'm worried about what people would think of me. No, I'm not cowardly. Would you reveal everything about yourself on a blog? No. So don't even start. Like i was saying.. I really need to get things off my mind, but i don't know how or who to tell. .__. I like to think of myself as weird, yet wonderful ^^ However or whatever your opinion is about me.. i don't mind, just as long as i don't catch onto it.

I'm really not expecting any, but if you would like to leave your 'opinion' about me in the comments, that's okay - Just as long as they don't kill me inside - like some people have already done.

Toodles.

The big question.

Yesterday, along with about 8 other people, i went ice skating. It was heaps of fun seeing as i actually know how to ice skate. The let down was the people who failed to come, and the gay music they played. Now the painful part was stacking it twice - getting a lump on my ankle and a bruise on my knee. D: When it was time to go home, Zoe's parents picked us up, and i slept over her house. It was totally fun and hilarious. The next day, me and Zoe went bowling - and of course i won. (122 points) :D

Ice skating was good, but the other people there kinda sucked. The first time i stacked it, these stupid tarts just skate past me laughing.. only to find themselves on the floor later on. - Sweethearts, it's called Karma.
Oh and i also had a 'blush moment' when a guy accidentally rode into me and said "Sorry beautiful" -Like wow. That's probably the nicest thing a cute stranger could say. I don't mean to make a big fuss about it but come on, you don't hear that everyday.

Anyway, somethings have me thinking and questioning.
Not that I'm in love or anything, but what does 'love' and 'like' actually mean? People use this phrase very often, and I'm getting sick of it. How do you know that what you're feeling is true? Should everyone automatically love someone? It seriously confuses me.

To answer this question i googled it. This is an advice column:

Well when you like someone, it's usually the funny fireworks or nervous feelings you get. You could think about them all the time and or be shy around them - they are crushes, it happens all the time. Although it is possible to grow a crush or friendship into a relationship, it just takes time. If you don't know them all that well, you have to talk to them and get to know them better. Most of all, they have to like you back.

Love is when you've found a million things inside that person that you know you can't find anywhere else. You have real, substantial conversations all the time that bring you closer together. You respect each other and want to spend time together and make sacrifices. You have common values, not just interests, and you both want to grow and be better people for the other person. It's not always totally logical... you could meet someone who seems perfect for you, but they never really inspire you or capture your interest. It can also be misleading, because you could just think someones really hot, or they may have a nice body, and you want to be around them but that's not love - it's lust. It's a mix of solid ground and unexplainable clouds that you get to, and people say you'll know it when it hits you but I'm not so sure about that, I think it hits you first, then you wake up and realise it, but it's different for everyone, you'll have to find it in your own journey.

I'm sure after reading this you will understand, much like i have.

Oh great, now I'm going to look like a horror movie. I have mascara on (I've been out today) and my eyes are watery from writing and editing this damn thing.
Toodles.